Who is Melgo?

I'm a mom, I'm a wife, I am a daughter, a sister, a friend (not always a good one). I am a Young Women junkie, a dance fanatic, a knowledge seeker. I am a self-analyzer, a pretend chef (when I'm in the mood), kinda messy, kinda lazy. I am a church-goer, a bit judgmental of judgmental people. I'm someone who needs to feel like I'm helping, someone who seeks approval from others, someone who gets anxiety in confrontations, that talks a big talk but doesn't walk the walk. I'm anxious when I talk about my dad, or losing my grandpa, or my mom's re-marriage. Things that hurt, things that were hard cause the beating heart. I don't like to be rebuked, or told what to do, or to disappoint people. I hate to disappoint. I don't like seafood too much, nor snakes or spiders. I enjoy reading but choose to watch mindless tv too much. I try to read the scriptures but don't enjoy them as much as I should. I love honest people, honest things, though I am not always honest. I gossip too much with my mom sisters and try to hard to appear that I don't to other people. I need my mom's approval/attention but pretend I don't. I love my family, I love my little kids. I put them above my husband sometimes and have to remind myself to focus on him. I like to have fun, things have to be fun. Not celebrating milestones or holidays makes me depressed. I have had to lower my expectations of life to help myself maintain a positive attitude. Sounds depressing but its really not- my expectations were way too high, a few hard knocks and reality checks lowered those expectations to a manageable maintenance. I am a night owl, a loud laugher and a sleeper inner. I feel the beat in music and it flows through me ha till I'm locking and popping like a B-girl. I'm a pretend Mexican that loves the culture and feels comfortable being the only white girl in the room. I use fake cuss words way too much but I use lots of positive words too. The world looks bleak and depressing when I am tired and its nothing a little sleep doesn't fix up! I can't stand mean people. I want to change the world. I like to daydream about my next big idea.  I don't like to go unnoticed but I realize that this can be a severe weakness in my quest for humility so I fight against that trait and try to temper myself. I am a problem-solver and can't stand endless complaints. I try to fix others problems even when they don't want me to. I don't hold people accountable for things- I just want to forgive and forget and have everything be ok. I am a forgiving person. I laugh at inappropriate times! I can eat too much often but don't mind working out. I like chocolate slim fast more than most meals I consume. I take things too far to make people laugh. I don't mind being laughed at most the time. I am good at faking it till I make it. I am pretty corny and and don't mind acting like a complete dork- also to get laughs. My embarrassing moments are of public record. I am loyal to my family.

Patience and more...

"The promises of the Lord, if perhaps not always swift, are always certain". I feel like this is something to remember.

"Patience means staying with something until the end. It means delaying immediate gratification for future blessings. It means reining in anger and holding back the unkind word. It means resisting evil, even when it appears to be making others rich." Elder Uchtdorf - April 2010

Patience is a process of perfection. The Savior Himself said that in your patience you possess your souls. ¹¹  Or, to use another translation of the Greek text, in your patience you win mastery of your souls. ¹²  Patience means to abide in faith, knowing that sometimes it is in the waiting rather than in the 
receiving that we grow the most. This was true in the time of the Savior. It is true in our time as well, for we are commanded in these latter days to “continue in patience until ye are perfected.”

1. Delaying immediate gratification for future blessings
2. Reining in anger and holding back the unkind word. 
3. Resisting evil even when it appears to make others rich.
4. Mastering your soul
5. Abiding in faith, knowing that sometimes it is in the waiting rather than in the receiving that we grow the most. 
6. Becoming perfect

When have I been patient? 
-When I have completed a project steadily (whether it be cleaning the house, organizing a room, or a craft for the house) without feeling rush or anxiety to complete it. 
- When I have held my mean tongue to consider my husbands perspective
- When I have taken a deep breath and explained to the kids what they did was wrong rather than yelling at them. 
- When I have held back the hurt I have felt caused from another until I could either get over it, or address it calmly with them. 
- When I have excused myself from my shortcomings and pressed on trying to be better.

When am I impatient?
- driving!
- with myself when I go against what I promised myself I would do (like be on time)
- when I have cussed or let "word vomit" spew from my mouth
- yell at the kids
- hurried Jarom along without appreciating his personality
- when I've let myself get discouraged with how much I have to do, the things I need to change, the house etc... Discouragement is impatience with oneself. Heavenly Father would never want us to be discouraged. Discouragement is a loss of hope, a lack of faith in the future and your ability to improve. Discouragement comes from Satan. A rebuke- yes, a feeling of sorrow at the behavior- yes, a will to change- yes, but complete and utter discouragement- never. 

If nothing else, I can be patient with myself, then add to that my family, and then others and so on...